AWOL
I’m sorry I’ve been so quiet this week. I’d like to tell you that it’s because I’ve been really busy with some important tasks, but that’s just not the case.
Basically, I’ve been lazy. I’ve had a few books that I’ve really wanted to read, so posting wasn’t a high priority. Also? I didn’t have anything to say. I’m getting ready to wrap up things at the Workplace and make the transition to sahm. I feel really good about it and I’m looking forward to more time with the baby.
Speaking of babies growing up too damned fast, Maddie crawled today. And where was I? IN THE BATHROOM. Even more tragically, this is NOT THE FIRST TIME THIS HAS HAPPENED. This is the second major milestone that I missed because of PEE. I was prepared to miss some milestones because I was at work. I had mentally prepared myself for the fact that Maddie’s babysitter may be the first one to see her do some things, but I had never prepared myself for the fact that my husband would see things first because I have a bladder the size of a kiwi. Where are all the pregnancy books that tell you this is how it’s going to be? Huh? And what about all the other stuff they leave out? Like:
Your hair falling out in clumps when your baby is 3 months old.
Breastfeeding is so damned hard that you may feel like a total failure as a mother and as a woman.
You will never sleep through the night again, even when your baby does because every little sound wakes you. Is that the baby?
You will say and do things you never would have dreamed you’d ever do. You won’t even be drunk when you do them.
You will be VERY interested in another human being’s poop output.
Once your baby is born, you envision horrible, tragic things happening to them all the damned time. Swistle calls it “The Knife Thing.” As in, imaging the knife you’re putting into the dishwasher slips and stabs your baby, even though he or she is in another room. Dropping your baby is another common one. Mine is imagining forgetting her in the car in Texas in August.
We need to get together and write a book about what it’s really like. Although, I doubt many women will still want babies after reading it. It’s pretty scary stuff.
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Today wasn’t such a good day. Things at the Workplace are dire and draining. But you know what? When I get home, I instantly feel better. There is a chubby, bubbly little boo bear waiting for me. She squeals with delight as soon as she sees me and holds her little arms up for me. The stresses of the day are gone, just like that. Poof!
It really just confirms that we’ve made the right decision for our family. Home, with my girl, is where I belong.
Two weeks to go.
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