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Teh Crazy. I haz it.
June 16th, 2010
So, how ’bout a post that’s not about my kids? GAH, could I be anymore boring? (Said in my best Chandler Bing voice, of course.)
Let’s talk about Teh Crazy. I talked to my OB on Monday about how ANGRY I’ve been lately and agreed that something was wonky since I’m on the Z0loft. I’m taking 150 mg and 200 is the max dose (which I did not know until our talk, btw) so naturally he was hesitant to raise it. (Part of the reason I’m on such a high dose is because with gastric bypass I’ve got malabsorption and need more medication to get the same effect as a full lower dose.) Anywho, he decided to add Wellbutr!n to the mix. Apparently the combo mimics Effe*or without the nasty side effects. I’m hoping that I’ll be able to wean off the high dosage of Z0loft with the addition of the WB. The downside is that WB contraindicated for breastfeeding, so no more nursing. I wasn’t nursing a lot, mind you, but I miss it. And my boobs are KILLING me. So, basically I’m crazy and have hurty boobs. It’s like PMS only without the excuse.
(FYI – If I use the actual names of the drugs I get inundated with “buy prescription drugs online!” spam comments.)
Why am I telling you all this? Well, I want any other new moms out there that might be reading to know it’s ok to talk about Teh Crazy with their doctors and that there’s no stigma or shame in getting postpartum depression. It doesn’t make you a failure or a bad mom. It makes you a human who needs a little help. Also, I’m all about the honesty around here and this is a Big Deal for me.
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Oh god. I remember how AWFUL it was when I stopped nursing. I never knew boobies could hurt so bad. Do the cabbage in the bra thing. & hot showers. & drink copious amounts of booze.
So, now more nursing = more liquor! Woo hoo!!!
Also, I’m proud of you for recognizing your Crazy and taking steps to make it better. I know it isn’t always easy to see it when you’re stuck in the middle of it. I also hope you find quick relief.
Smooches!
This IS a big deal, and I’m glad you’re addressing it appropriately. I hope the new combo works!
Way to get help.
And the more moms I talk to in open, honest conversation, the more I am aware that PPD is PROLIFIC and I’d say about 3/4 of ALL moms have experienced it at some point in growing their family. So we really DO need to work to overcome the stigma, because Ding, dong, HALLO, we’ve all experienced it.
(BTW, I think the way our culture is set up- very little support or even regular adult contact during the post partum time is why the incidents of PPD are so high. Other cultures, where mothers are nutured, cooked for, and encouraged to stay in bed and care only for the baby do not have nearly the rates that we do. So! Can I come over and oil your feet for you? Make you dinner?)
I hope the new med combo works well!!!
Totally agree with Marie Green about lack of support for new moms. Everyone’s so isolated- it’s not like your whole neighborhood is tending to your growing family like I imagine it was in the forties and fifties even in America, and like it still is in some cultures. You get maybe a couple meals from friends, your family pops by occasionally if you’re lucky enough to live near them, and other than that you’re totally on your own. And usually dealing with wildly fluctuating feelings not to mention physical weakness and pain and sleep deprivation. It’s a setup for a mental breakdown, frankly. So I’m really glad you got right on getting help. It’s one of my biggest goals with this next baby- no needless suffering. If I am struggling, I will SAY so.
Love this post. People don’t talk enough about this side of new motherhood. I felt so alone even when I was just baby blues-y with Bub. Nothing major, but NO ONE had told me it could be like that. And, to have to combine all of that with stopping nursing, which is a hormonal shitstorm in and of itself, well, you’re a hero.
I had to start on Effe*or this past month because of pre-menopause type symptoms. There are side effects. I did have the stomach upset for the first 2 weeks and felt sleepy, and this was at half dosage (37.5mg). a full dosage made me feel foggy. Upside is that ANGER (and let that be a red tinged bold colored PMS anger) I felt 2 weeks before my period has disappeared. I can manage that ugliness when I feel it well up, which I could not before. I can manage the sleepiness by taking at night but definitely take on a full stomach.
Good luck!