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Thoughts from the uterus
September 29th, 2009
I got the results of my second hCG test today. I’m wicked pregnant, yo. The OB scheduled me for a sonogram on 10/19 to check for the possibilty of twins to make sure all is progressing according to plan. (I refuse to be pregnant with twins. So there.)
I’m giving a lot of thought to the kind of birth experience I’d like this time around. My last one was, well, shall we say, less than awesome. This time I’d like to try for a VBAC without any medication. I figure if I can handle a c-section without an epidural, I can handle natural childbirth, right? I mean, it can’t possibly be THAT painful. I haven’t run this by my OB yet, but I plan to at my next visit. I have a feeling he’s not going to jump on board the VBAC train. Don’t get me wrong, he’s wonderful, but he’s kind of medication-happy. I have a feeling he’ll gently push for a repeat c-section. I’m going to hold my ground and stand firm, though. I’ll assure him that I’ll go for the c-section the minute it looks like there’s any trouble at all, but otherwise, I want as little medical intervention as possible.
I’ve also been ruminating on how different this pregnancy is so far. There is very little Crazy this time. No obsessive googling at all. No thinking and thinking about all the millions of things that could go wrong. I’m just sort of… pregnant. With a toddler to chase around and a household to manage, I don’t really have time to devote to mentally Being Pregnant every minute of the day.
However, there is a downside to being too busy to pay attention to being pregnant; the tiredness. I’m so! tired! all! the! time! I’ve taken a nap every day for the last week or so. I cannot imagine how bad it’s going to be when I’m the size of a hippo running after Maddie at the playground. Also, I’m very stabby. It’s like PMS cranked up to 11. I swear to god, Maddie doesn’t shut up EVER and I’m on the verge of screaming at her to GIVE IT A REST ALREADY, PLEASE! So far, I’ve managed to ask her to hush and give me some quiet time in a very nice tone. I don’t know how long that will last, though. I’m not optimistic.
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I’m so happy for you! I’m taking notes, so I know what to expect with a little kid and pregnancy together. I was so tired the first time, I know the second time will be even worse.
I actually got tears of happiness that your hcg levels are great. I have to believe that it can still happen, that somewhere in the world people- even people who have certain fertility problems- can get pregnant and stay pregnant and that everything can just be normal.
SO glad everything is seeming normal and fine for you. (Well, except maybe for the twin thing!)
What are you going to do about work? Being on your feet while pg sounds less than appealing.
Oh bless your heart for persuing a VBAC. Le sigh. Check with doctor AND hospital about VBAC policy asap, and thoroughly ask them lots of questions and what if scenarios, and maybe ask them more than once, because they seem to spring surprises on you last minute and change their minds and things. Like, “oh hey, not all of us at our practice will support your VBAC, as it turns out” and “by the way, you will be strapped down to the bed with continuous fetal monitoring.
And the like.
Just my experience. Not trying to scare, seriously. Just: check things out now, rather than later. And it’s kind of an uphill battle; I mean, you gotta WANT the VBAC, and sometimes the fight seemed so…pointless to me.
But I’m of course glad I did the attempt, in the end. Very enlightening.
I found I was far bitchier with my second pregnancy because I had far less time to myself. I guess that’s along the lines of being more tired? My poor toddler though. Geez.
Congrats on the doubling HcG (I assume) too.
YAY on the hormone levels! Felt the same way during my second pregnancy as far as the toddler-whose-voice-grated-on-my-every-nerve…but it passes. And you get used to the fatigue. I had to laugh at your ‘no time to devote every waking moment to thinking about being pregnant’ I felt the EXACT SAME WAY and your words were a perfect representation. I wanted a VBAC – changed hospitals and doctors and fought the insurance company to do it too – then found out at 39 weeks that sonographer was measuring a 10 lb baby. OH – hmm- ok – how about we schedule this party to end right now shall we? She was born later that day – huge – hungry and pissed. But shes a sweetine now. Big sister too. FYI if you are the mommy of twins – maybe you rethink v-bac…
Would you consider changing OBs to someone who might be more supportive of the kind of birth you want to have? Or maybe getting a midwife or a doula to also be present? I am so curious about all this stuff because I am thinking about what I want too, even though I’m not even pregnant and won’t be for awhile.
YAY!
Good luck on the VBAC talk. My doctor is also medication happy, although I love him and know I would have a hard time standing firm on my decision. Also, because he’s pretty, I’m pretty much willing to follow his advice. My standards, they are high.
Shelly – I really don’t know about the job situation right now. I’m not making enough money for it to be worth my time, the food is killing me with my night-morning-sickness, and I can’t imagine being on my feet for 6 or 8 hours when I’m hugely pregnant.
Penny – Thank you so much for the advice. I’m definitely going to ask a lot of questions of both my OB and the hospital. I don’t want this to turn into a big, nasty deal, you know?
Jess – Yes, I think I would change practices/drs if they weren’t supportive of my desires. I mean, it’s MY BODY and as long as the baby nor I are in danger, then I should be able to give birth any way I want to, right? I mean, when did childbirth become a medical situation instead of a natural process? GAH! I don’t mean to sound all crunchy, but I’m not SICK, I’m PREGNANT. I don’t need TREATMENT, I need ASSISTANCE.