Last week I met with the nurse at my OB/Gyn’s office to talk about The Crazy and future pregnancies. During our discussion, she asked about my PCOS and whether or not it had resolved with my massive weight-loss. I explained that I thought it had and she arranged for a blood draw to check my progesterone level to make sure I was ovulating. We talked about z0loft and whether or not I needed to wean off of it before getting pregnant. She said that z0loft was the safest of all the anti-depressants and it’s the only one they’ll use for a pregnant or nursing woman. She also said that she’d talk to my doctor about it just to be sure, but she thought he might want me to wean down to a lower dose and see how I felt.

Well, my doctor called this morning with FABULOUS news. Turns out I am ovulating just like I’m supposed to. My cycle is short (25 days) so I ovulate early, which is no big. He said that if my cycle gets any shorter, though, he’ll want to put me on a low dose of cl0mid. He said for us to try for two or three months and if I don’t get pregnant then he’ll write me a script.

The best part was that he said it was absolutely fine to continue my z0loft throughout the pregnancy and I didn’t have to change doses unless I felt like I needed to. He said z0loft is category B and in all his years as an OB he’s never had a problem with a pregnancy/baby due to taking it. How awesome is that? I was so afraid of The Crazy that I seriously considered nixing Operation Second Child just to avoid the whole thing. I feel so relieved to know that I can stay sane and not damage my unborn child at the same time. Because, honestly, it seemed like those two things were going to be mutually exclusive.

Now, if I could just get Gerald to be excited about another baby things would be perfect. Oh, he’s willing to “take one for the team,” but his heart isn’t in it. He agrees that Maddie ought to have a sibling and he knows how much I want another baby so he’s game, but if it were up to him Maddie would be it. I know that once the new kid is here he’ll love her/him just as much as he loves Maddie. (Remember, he wasn’t too sure about her at first, either.) I know things will be harder with two, but so worth it to see them play and grow together. To hear whispers and giggles as they plot a tiny wave of terror. To see the sibling bond up close and personal, since neither Gerald nor I had that.

I’m so ready for this next chapter to begin!

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