Retreat
Yesterday’s genetic counseling session was, um, informative. And by that, I mean it scared the ever-loving-shit out of me. Seeing my odds in black and white was terrifying on a visceral level, you know? And now I have to wait three weeks to get the results back.
The final insult to injury? The day I get my results is the day before the anniversary of my mom’s death. Thanks for that, gods of scheduling.
Anyway, the point of this post isn’t to whine or garner sympathy. It’s to tell you that I feel the need to retreat into my shell for a little while. I suspect there’ll be much ruminating on my mortality and wondering what if? No one needs to be subjected to that. Trust me.
So, I’ll be around but kinda quiet for the next couple of weeks.
Filed under: BRCA
Oy. I had been wondering about the timing of the results in relation to that date. I’m sorry that it’s all happening together.
I wish I could fly down & distract you for a day or two!! I’ll be thinking of you all the time.
1 Becky said this (March 27, 2009 at 7:59 am)
I understand. Hugs to you!
2 Mommy Daisy said this (March 27, 2009 at 8:12 am)
I am the QUEEN of shell-retreaters. I so, so get it.
Thinking of you.
3 TNG said this (March 27, 2009 at 8:28 am)
Much love & hugs to you. Know that when you pop your head out of your shell-we will be here.
4 Domestic Extraordinaire said this (March 27, 2009 at 8:44 am)
OK, I totally feel you on this but oh, bad timing! I just posted in two places about WLS and was really looking forward to hearing your thoughts about the whole thing.
5 Jess said this (March 27, 2009 at 9:00 am)
Feel free to rant/vent in here; it’s another good reason to have a blog.
6 Amber said this (March 27, 2009 at 11:23 am)
Best wishes, lady. We’ll be here when you feel like coming back.
7 Shelly said this (March 27, 2009 at 1:33 pm)
Hi-
I just found your blog… from I can’t remember where. Anyway, I haven’t had a chance to read a lot of your posts; however the BRCA tag caught my eye. I had BRCA testing when I was 24 years old, along with my mom and 2 young aunts. It’s a hellish wait, but you’ll be glad you did it, either way, after your results.
Good thoughts,
Mary
8 Mary said this (April 5, 2009 at 10:56 am)