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All emo and junk
July 15th, 2008
When Swistle emailed me and inquired about starting a “solidarity fast,” I though she was off her rocker. I mean, I love her with the fire of a thousand suns and all, but who in their right mind would want to do this? Especially in solidarity of a complete stranger?
Once again, I am amazed by the power of the internets and blogging women. I was in tears as I saw that SIX people signed up to fast along with me. And four of them haven’t read my blog before yesterday. AND countless others were kind enough to leave encouraging comments even though they aren’t fasting. (Smarties!) I cannot imagine having to make this journey without you guys. Your support and encouragement means the world to me. My family, my friends, and my blogging buddies are all incredibly supportive. Who could ask for more? Thank you. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. You will never know how much your simple kindnesses have touched me.
Ok. Enough emo shit. Let’s bitch some more about this mofo fast. Honestly, I think I turned a corner today. My favorite nurse at my surgeon’s office told me that by day four things would get better. I don’t know if it’s the placebo effect or what, but I feel SO MUCH BETTER. My attitude has done a 180. I’m positive again and feeling invincible.
Yesterday, Gerald was at work and Maddie was asleep and I was alone in the house will all the yummy, forbidden food. I thought about eating. No one would know, right? But I didn’t. I USED ACTUAL, REAL-LIFE WILLPOWER. For like, the first time EVER. It was so empowering! I stayed on track all day and even made dinner for Gerald and Maddie. I did eat a piece of roasted cauliflower and it was delicious, but I had no desire for more. I had a double helping of chicken broth for dinner and a shake. I’m feeling comfortably full, for the first time in four days.
If you’re playing along at home, I promise that the forth day changes everything. I no longer feel like I cannot possibly make it six more days. Now, I’m thinking “Well, halfway through today I’ll be halfway through the entire 10 days. Sure I can make it the last five days. Piece of cake sugar-free popsicle!”
Also, I got on the scale yesterday and I’ve lost five pounds since Thursday. I’m not going to update my ticker though. I’m going to wait for my “official” weigh-in on the morning of my surgery.
I CAN do this. Hell, I AM doing this. And things are only going to get better.
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I found your blog through Swistle and I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you. I, too, am overweight and it is because I have no will power/live to eat as your husband stated before. I can’t wait to see how your weight loss journey goes!
I’m so glad & RELIEVED to hear that it did get easier. I have been thinking about you non-stop, especially over the weekend. You are a frigging hero.
I found your blog through The New Girl yesterday, and I have to tell you I really love reading it. I find your story truly inspiring, and I’m here at the monitor cheering you along! Can’t wait for more positive updates!
You go, Girl!
The worst part so far has been that I suddenly realized that i LOVE to eat after I get all the kids in bed. Surprisingly a cup of tea was pretty enjoyable! I have a feeling the novelty of that will wear off soonly.
I’m with ya all the way – consider me your newest loyal reader and biggest fan!
SO glad to hear it’s getting a little easier. And already 5 pounds! That’s great!
You are doing it RIGHT NOW. That is one of my favorite mental encouragements.
Isn’t the internets awesome. Man. I’m practically GIDDY over it lately.
You are awesome. The whole concept of turning things down for yourself rather than to keep up appearances is such an empowering one. Weight Watchers did that for me and it was an eye-opening discovery.
Also, blogland is amazing. We are all so lucky.
Piece of sugar-free popsicle–ha ha!
Go Erica, Go Erica!! WOO! See? Willpower! YEAH! 5 lbs? YEAH!
I’m cheering for you really loudly over here! Wish I could join but the breastfeeding . . . well it’s my excuse. I’m so excited for you!!!!!
Yayyyy YOU!
And yes, I’ve fasted before and after a couple of days you stop feeling listless and sick and instead you feel tons of energy; it’s great, if you can only stick it out those first few days. Enjoy!
You CAN do it!!! Woohoo!! I am so happy for you that you are feeling so much better!!
YAAAAAY!! I’m so incredibly proud! Don’t you love it when you exercise Actual Will Power?!
It’s so RARE for me, too. Woo hoo! Today is only Day 1 for me and I might die, but I won’t stop!!
GO ERICA!
You’re doing GREAT!!!! But this reminds me… OMG… have they told you that the day after the surgery you’ll have gained an effing 10-20 pounds? It’s from all the IV fluid. Don’t panic. It goes away fast but if you don’t know about it, it can throw you for one heck of a loop. Don’t let it. It’s normal!!!!
I’m so proud of you. While I may not be fasting, I’m doing protein shakes like a good girl in your honor!!
Hugs~
Eva
5 pounds already? You = ROCK STAR!
I came here through Swistle, and just wanted to say Good for you for taking charge of your health! I had my RnY on January 8th, and have lost over 100lbs. You will thank yourself for sticking with this even though it totally sucks right now. I’ll keep reading to follow your progress and cheer you on. Not to mention your blog is fun to read
Hey, Erica, I’m finally getting time to click over here and see what this is all about, and I wanted to say I’M PROUD OF YOU!!
Wow, you’re really doing this! Can’t wait to hear the grand success stories to come!
I confess. I haven’t been here in a long time.
But holy crap and good for you!!
I’m catching up on everything and am so proud of what you are doing. You are so brave!
I’m rootin’ for you over here, and will be back more often to check on your progress!!
You continue to impress me! Willpower is a trait which is hard to develop, and well done to you for having such a great attitude. I have recently embarked upon my own weight loss endeavour and I’m pleasing myself with the amount of restraint and faith I have gathered.
I look forward to reading more about your journey. Good luck.