Detox
I’m a pretty social person (read: loud and in everyone’s business) and this presents a unique problem now that I’m staying at home. There’s no drama or gossip. There aren’t any cliques, there isn’t any backstabbing. No rumors or lies. When I was at The Workplace, I despised these things (well, all except the gossip since we’re being totally honest here.) but now I find that I’m actively seeking them out. Where? In the blogsphere of all places.
I intuit slight where none was intended, I try to make comments into a popularity contest, I get pouty and put-out when someone else gets linked or mentioned on another blogger’s site. I want to change my “style” to mirror more popular bloggers so I can sit at this imaginary cool kids table that exists only in my head.
Dude. How pathetic is that? I’ve really got to hang out with friends more often. Meet some local people. Something other than get way too emotionally involved in blogging.
Therefore, I’m going on a self-imposed blogging detox. I’m going to stay away from all things blog-related until I get my perspective straight.
I don’t think it’s pathetic, it seems COMMON, and we’re all afflicted with one of these things or the other at times. Especially wanting to change the style of writing. I relate to that one the most. I have a hard time writing posts about serious topics. I always think I SHOULD, because so and so does it so well. But I don’t. My style is never going to be “thought-provoking master of the written word”, much as I might like it to be.
Anyway. I’ll miss you. Email if you want to chat.
Wait! Before you go, just tell me… am I a cool kid? Yeah, didn’t think so. Damn! Come back soon, you’re style is just fine.
I totally know what you mean and I applaud your determination to detox and yet I hope you don’t stay away for too long.
I think we all get caught with some of this every now and then. I love your posts, and I will miss you. Enjoy your time off and I’ll be keeping an eager eye on my Reader!
Aww, detox sucks!
I don’t want you to detox, I like reading you and miss you when you’re gone!
Come back soon, cool girl!
HUGS!
grace
DAMMIT. No! Okay, fine, make your own decision. But SAD! I like reading you.
Detox? No!!!
I hope you come back soon!
We’ll be waiting.
We’re all cool kids right here at YOUR table.
We have our own damn table. Period. And you can sit at the head of it (across from me at the other head, of course)…
Uh! That is totally unfair…waaah. But, I see what you mean….Please come back soon :o)
I so totally understand, Erica. Take all the time you need. Sometimes the world of blogging just pisses me off too. For no reason at all.
I’m actually in the middle of that right now myself, thus no blogging lately and no blogging any time soon, I think and not much reading or commenting on others lately either. Not that I’m torqued about being “cool” or “popular”, although I’ve felt that too. (Note, I’ve often joked with Dan about checking my comments, calling myself a comment-whore, etc., but I’m only half-joking, really, and I despise myself for it sometimes) And I haven’t overreacted to any perceived slights from other bloggers (although I’ve mistakenly gone through that in the past, too).
No, this time I’m just heartily sick of it. Last time I was this sick of it I stopped blogging for almost a year. No real reason for it; just got sick of it. This time…well, we’ll see. Anyway, take your time. And no beating yourself up; you’re human, we all are. You haven’t done anything “wrong”.
I can understand this. I found myself just the other day thinking about how cool some blogger is and how I’ve had a few cool types have commented on my blog, but then they disappeared and I don’t think they read any more. Wah, wah, then I realized how silly I was being. I got over myself and decided I’m just me and that’s all that matters. So, I think I know where you’re coming from.
I will miss you in the meantime, but I hope you accomplish what you’re trying to.
Yes, I can attest to the fact that WAH means your coworkers are on the web. Sometimes I get angry when they don’t update enough.
WAH is hard. I’m leaving it behind and I’m not sorry I am. Good for you for detoxing.
I really hope my last comment didn’t offend you! I certainly have no sort of JUDGEMENT about anti-depression meds; gosh, I’ve contemplated them myself more than once. I think you are BRAVE for facing a problem and finding a solution. I wish I were braver.
I will miss you. Also, it’s ironic you wrote about linking because I just today finally changed my template and figured out how to do the links myself instead of needing husband to do it for me randomly, and for what it’s worth, I added you! And now you won’t be there! Wahhh….
But you do what you need to do; we totally understand.