I’m a loser, baby
Last Monday night, I joined Weight Watchers online. I worked the program all week and then attended my first meeting last night. I weighed myself at home when I joined, and then weighed at the meeting last night. Near as I can tell, I lost about three pounds.
The thing I cannot get over is that it seems to have finally “clicked” for me. Last week on the program wasn’t a struggle. I didn’t feel deprived or binge-y or any of the things I typically feel when I’m on a “diet.” This time, it feels like it might actually sink into my thick skull. I have no problem grasping the fact that this is my new life. I’m not eating well temporarily to lose weight. I’m eating well because that’s what I should be doing. Fast food and junk just doesn’t appeal to me at all right now. WTF? When did this happen? And why didn’t it happen for me at all over the last 15 years? I know I shouldn’t care about why it’s happening and just enjoy the fact that it is happening… but I’m afraid it’ll stop as suddenly as it started.
Maybe it’s my new motivation. I know everyone says you’re supposed to do it for yourself and no one else. Well, I’m not doing it for myself. I’m doing it for Maddie. First of all, I want to be around for her. I don’t want to die young from a totally preventable problem. I also want to be able to run and play with her. And I want to teach her how to eat healthfully.
I think, in the past, doing it for myself wasn’t really a motivation for me because I didn’t really care much about myself. My self-esteem was too low to use “loving myself” as a motivator. Now, I have a reason to want to be healthy. A reason I totally and completely believe in. And it really is about being healthier and not skinnier. Skinnier is a nice bonus, but I just want to be the best mom I can be for Maddie.
Good for you! Keep us updated on your progress…..maybe you can motivate me to put down the pizza and start going to the gym again.
MMMMMMM….. pizza…..
Oh. I mean, sure! Come on, Jana! You can do it!
This is a good summary for how I feel, not in regards to weight necessarily, but In General. Before AD, when I was flying on a plane for example, I would think about dying (am I the only one who does this?) and I would be like, “well, that would suck, but EH”. And now I am like “I MUST BE THERE, MUST LIVE FOREVER”.
OMG! I used to think the same thing while flying. “I wonder what would happen if I died right now? Gerald would be sad, but that’s about it. No big deal.” Now? Now I burst into tears at the thought of leaving Gerald to raise Maddie by himself and leaving her motherless. I WANT TO LIVE!!!!
Erica, great job on the weightloss. I’m trying to get myself there too. So far I haven’t stuck with anything. I have goals, but I lack motivation. But today (even just a ho-hum kind of day) I walk/jogged a mile. That felt good. I guess even baby steps will help. But I have been thinking about eating healthier lately, because Matt found out his cholesterol is a little high. I worry about him, so I want to change things around here for him AND for me. Thanks for posting about your progress. I’m rooting for you!
Thanks, Daisy. I got that Gazelle, too, so I’ll be able to work out despite the million degree heat outside.
A mile is nothing to sneeze at, sister! It’s a mile more than you did yesterday, right? Keep it up!
Just found your blog. Good luck on the WW thing. I just did it, myself! This is my second round but my first time since having my kids.
I’ll look forward to your progress!
Thanks and welcome! I appreciate you taking the time to comment
This is my third go round with WW, but it’s been since 2003. So far, this time is so much easier.
That’s great! But which WW program did you pick that is working so well. I really want to know.
Huggs
Theresa
I’m working the Flex Plan. It lets you eat what you like and you keep track of your points. There’s also the Core Plan that doesn’t have points and counting, but it’s a more restrictive plan. I’m a very picky eater, so it wouldn’t really work for me. The Flex Plan also helps me to not feel deprived. I can even have a sweet every now and then, as long as I have the points for it.
If you decide to join, I recommend signing up online for the monthly pass. It’s cheaper and easier than pay-as-you-go
Erica, well done, of course eating healthy is the real secret.
In the mid seventies I started to put some weight on, marriage was agreeing with me. Certain forms of exercise was making me breathless, with Mel’s encouragement, she joined with me, we joined the local WW, Mel reached her target a month later as I did six months later.
I still follow the rules I learned there. Thirty plus years later I weigh very little more than my target weight.
Keep it up and in thirty years you’ll be happily playing with your grandchildren.
Warm hugs,
Paul.
Congrats and great good luck, Erica!